Still Waiting

Getting tired while waiting… U know?
U Know, do you know how I feel?..
Do you still remember me? Oh~ no...
Even if a day goes by, I'll still remember you
Even if a month goes by, I still won't let you go
Can you understand my desires for you?
Going insane while waiting
and each day feels like a year.
I, was waiting and while I was waiting,
It felt as if you would come back
or if I look back I would see your face
I am going insane,
I am holding back just in case you come back,
I am still waiting
Even if a month goes by, I'll still remember you.
Even if a year goes by, I still won't let you go......

Why is it so hard
and everything's so complicated in my head.
I was waiting and waiting
and yet no answers from you
I didn't cry because of you
and you didn't leave because of me
So why is it so hard, why is it so hard?

I will wait for a year
or even a decade if I have to.
I will wait and it's fine if tire myself out.
Going insane while waiting......

I'm still waiting for YOU

felt cheated

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hurm,...

by Hanafi Lee on Friday, 23 April 2010 at 15:34

Too often you make me cried,
You never know & notice it, my love.
Looking a lot at you & you even ignore me~
Your ways hurt me a lot
I do have feelings,
Many times you do that to me
Love me if you are being honest
Leave me here without your smile
I tried to understand your love
but very often you make my heart broken
You go to him & thought that i will not know about it
You leave me when I need you the most
love you?, not anymore
But my love for you is weak because of that
Maybe you're not a true love for me,..

adakah aku yang bersalah,...

Sayang Kata-katamu tersangat manis
Aku tidak sedar dikau sedang bermain dgn ku,
dengan kata-katamu,

adakah kau benar-benar ingin menyakiti ku?
Kenapa kau melakukan ini kepada ku? kenapa?

Cerita tentang lelaki lain kepada ku
Kisah-kisah cintamu kepada ku
Aku cuba untuk mengabaikan dan berpura-pura bahawa aku tidak mendengar,
tetapi...

Cara kau bertindak apabila kau sedang mabuk.
Cara kau tersenyum pada kawan ku,
Tolong Hentikan,
Walaupun berkali-kali aku berpesan,

dikau mengatakan "Maafkan BABY" hanya untuk saat itu
dikau mengatakan "BABY akan berubah" hanya untuk saat itu
Hatiku sakit, sakit tersangat sakit, tetapi
Aku tidak dapat mengatakannya,i


BABY dikau menghancurkan hatiku
BABY dikau menyakiti hatiku
Aku telah memutuskan untuk meninggalkan dirimu
aku tahu dan sedar bahawa ini salah,
tapi aku tetap akan kembali kepada dirimu

BABY dirimu dan diriku
tidak mungkin bersama...
Aku menangis didalam, tetapi aku memaksa diri ini untuk tersenyum.

Hatiku keliru..
Aku kelihatan bodoh kerana aku tahu dan sedar bahawa..
Walaupun saya telah diperdayakan oleh cinta Aku menahan air mataku
dari mengalir, aku tidak mungkin kelihatan sedih dihadapan mu,.
Kenyataan bahawa aku adalah mainan yang akan dibuang suatu hari nanti..
Membuat perasaan saya tak tertahankan
Tapi Mengapa! Mengapa!~

Hari ini aku sedar bahawa diriku tidak lagi mempunyai rasa cinta kepada mu
selamat tinggal khayalan,..
maafkan aku jika tidak melepaskan dikau dengan lebih awal~..
selamat tinggal cinta,..

sinaran kasih dari mu

ketika melihat wajahmu, diriku hampir rebah,.
ketika melihat dirimu pergi,.. hatiku berdebar-debar
diri ini bercakap dengan rasa malu, seperti anak kecil
ketika melihatmu bibirku hanya tersenyum, entah mengapa,..
suara ku seperti terkunci,
hatiku merasakan bahawa cinta telah datang padaku

dikau telah menawan hatiku
dkau umpama sinar yang menyinari hidupku.
hatiku telah dimiliki olehmu,
nafasku seperti terhenti buat seketika,
aku akan berusaha yang terbaik untuk mu
kerana aku cinta kamu
Tidak ada alasan untuk cinta ku, anda tahu

Sayang, kasih, cinta ku hanya kepunyaan mu
kau lebih indah dari bintang-bintang di atas di langit malam
cinta yang bersinar jauh di dalam hatiku
daku menyukai perasaan ini,

aku cinta padamu sayang..
berikan diriku sinar,
setiap malam diriku melihat bintang-bintang
diriku pasti teringatkan dirimu,
kau cahaya cintaku,.

ketika diriku melihat dirimu, diriku merasa seperti di alam khayalan,..
mungkin cintaku tidak kelihatan,

dirimu terlalu cantik dimata ku
dikau kelihatan menyerlah dan lebih indah dari sinaran matahari di siang hari
dikau menyinari kegelapan di hatiku
diriku amat memerlukan sinaran dari mu

menyintai dirimu adalah perkara terbaik pernah terjadi didalam hidupku
bahkan ketika mataku tertutup, diriku masih melihat dirimu,
melihatmu seperti ini, membuatkan daku terus berusaha..
aku cinta padamu, dirimu amat hangat~
dikau cahaya cintaku~

its hurt me alot,... why did u do this to me?

May.27.2010
7.32 pm

about LOVE


I realize that one day I will lose your soul
I realized that I was not as good as I thought,
I realize that I have many flaws,
I realize that I am weak in terms of religion,

but,
I do have feelings,

I am aware even im crying i still cant changed it~
twice u ask for me~
i know i cant let u go~
but if u wanna let my hand go,..
theres nothing i can do~
u will find sum1 better than me~
oh fuck i cant stop crying~
i dunno what to do without u girl~

Letting you go…
I got this, yeah still thinking about this thing a lot,
you got me shaken up
(Please tell me there’s a way)
And it got my head just spinnin’ round round round round
(Please tell me there’s a way)
Don’t wanna take a fall It’s best to break it up
It’s gonna be better for you, move on
(Please tell me there’s a way)
Uh huh we break it
Or thought we make it
And now we cover it up

Girl I swear I won’t even for a second
cause you any pain in order to protect you
there’s already no other way. Baby our love itself brings us pain
And I got nothing, nothing to say

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
those hands that embraced me
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
seem to be letting go, if forgetting me will give you freedom Baby
Tell me goodbye,

Girl you know when you lose your smile, I will place the blame on myself
Those words, and even the light, I will lose sight of everything else

Baby the moment our lips part this time
I’ll never find better, better than you

and it’s so, so. Sad it just ain’t happening
Wish it could be better. Sorry to scrapping
But I just can’t let ya. Shouldn’t be less than happy
I said look at me. I couldn’t live with myself seeing you lacking
The things you deserve. Baby you was a part?
Must believe that it hurts that lead this world
I feel the aching through my body,
it just takes a bigger part of me to be let you go.
I wish that one soul

your voice, pained and fading away, away…
erased completely by the wind, stay, stay…
All these things, I can’t take it, those tears, don’t cry for me
for your sake I’ll never look back again

{
i was so good to her but she still left i just gaze upon it, u know...
where you going after throwing me out so cold-heartedly how can you smile so easily...?!
why is this such misery..
you made me cry right here you killed me! you've even burned away my soul... (i will let u go)
it's ok i've thrown out the regrets you were smiling in the arms of another guy,..

she was ma baby i'm entrusting her with you
the one whom i loved more than myself, she wants you
i've let her go i've endured it
i hope the upsetting rumors i hear aren't true

(early morning past midnight) awakening by your phone call
(rubbing my heavy eyes) i greet you
(i don't understand at all) your words that are telling me that you've missed me
don't say things like that any longer U know why I don't want you anymore

good bye good bye baby
just just just just be happy don't look for me
good bye good bye baby
i know that U gotta go
can't take it no more

she was ma baby through the tip of my nose
the scent of you that has lingered throughout the many nights
with your wet lips sexy body hot breaths
did you look at him with that same look in your eyes like when you wanted me baby?

(with the last cold words)

to you who turned your back on me
(with my burning tears) i've washed and thrown you out
(after all this time passed)

your telling me you want us to go back
don't look for me any longer U know why I don't want you anymore

good bye baby
just be happy don't look for me.
good bye baby
U know U gotta go
can't take it no more

exactly why are you hanging on to me were you desperate to be in another mans arms again uh!
i dont understand that sign you gave me Dont make me laugh, making that same attempt everytime uh!
ya'll know ma steelo Letting you go with a smile on my face was my last consideration for you
i wont hold you back so leave Go back to that other guy and beg again c'mon

(with the last cold words) to you who turned your back on me
(with my burning tears) i've washed and thrown you out
(after all this time passed) your telling me you want us to go back
don't look for me any longer U know why I don't want you anymore

good bye baby
just be happy don't look for me..
}

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
do u even think about me??
i love u with all my heart~
do u hear me........
i love u so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i cant even forget u~
baby u breaking my heart,.
baby u hurting my heart,..
u are the one i love~
i dont blame u for breaking up with me,..
its my fault from the start,..
but i do love u~
i will always be there with u,..
i wil always remember u~
& i will endure this alone,..
dont worry about me~

My Promise

♥I promise you my heart♥

♥I promise you my life♥
♥I promise we'll never be apart♥
♥I promise not to hurt you♥
♥I promise to never make you cry♥
♥I promise to always trust you♥
♥I promise not to lie♥
♥I promise you forever♥
♥I promise you tonight♥
♥I promise you my respect♥
♥I promise to do things right♥
♥I promise to always be there♥
♥I promise until the end♥
♥I promise to always love you♥
♥I promise you my love♥
♥I promise you my life♥
♥I promise this forever♥

my first Love Sad Story [base on true story]

semuanya bermula apabila aku dimasukkan ke hospital untuk menjalani rawatan.
keadaanku ketika itu amat parah, aku merasakan diri ini tidak lagi dapat bertahan.
kerana penyakit darah bukanlah suatu penyakit yang mudah diubati,
kerap juga aku muntah-muntah dan pitam,.ubat-ubatan merupakan kehidupan kedua bagiku.
sejak dulu lg kekuatan badan ku tidak seperti kanak-kanak lain.
aku hanya mampu melihat kegembiraan kanak-kanak lain bermain sesama mereka ditaman hospital.
aku keseorangan, suatu hari ketika aku sedang tidur aku telah dikejutkan dengan bunyi guruh yg amat kuat,
aku ketakutan~
tiba2 dtg seorg gadis yg amat comel berkata awak jgn takut taw sbb awak lelaki,
dia memperkenalkan dirinya sebagai nasha dan baru dipindahkan pagi tadi kebilik ku,
kami byk berborak pd malam itu, Keesokan paginya aku tersedar dalam pelukannya,
aku tidak lagi kesunyian~
selepas beberapa bulan aku bersendiri,
dia hadir dalam hidup ku membawa seribu erti~
aku telah mula kembali bersemangat,
tidak lagi aku menanti dan mencari kebahagiaan,

kami berborak sampai larut malam seperti yang dilakukan remaja lain.
pada saat itu kami berfikir bahawa kami hanya teman dan tidak lebih dari itu
tiap hari, tiap saat, kami menjadi intim...
kami telah berkongsi rahsia kami, hidup kami bersama didlm hospital
perlahan-lahan aku merasa "sesuatu"
sesuatu yang tidak diharapkan antara kami berdua, kami merasakan cinta
bagi ku dirimu ibarat sinar yg memberi seribu harapan,
tanpa dirimu nasha aku tidak akan jadi sekuat ini,

suatu petang nasha berkata tentang sesuatu
bunyinya agak tidak jelaz
aku berasa hairan, tetapi membiarkan sahaja
kami bermain seperti biasa
namun begitu aku merasakan kelainan, perubahan diri nasha amat ketara,
aku tidak begitu suka akan perubahan yang berlaku,.

keesokan paginya.
nasha kelihatan amat sakit,
tetapi nasha masih mampu lg berpura-pura demi ku
sehingga membuatkan aku tidak dapat lagi menahan,
titisan air mata ku mengalir tanpa aku sedari,
kerana aku sedar bahawa aku akan kehilangan diri mu,.
aku tidak pernah merasakan sebegini takut

kerana
Andai diriku kesejukan dirimu pasti dtg menghangatkan,.
Andai diriku kesunyian & ketakutan dirimu sentiasa menemaniku,..
aku tidak lagi merasakan bahawa hidupku kosong dan penuh kesedihan
tanpa dirimu nasha aku masih lagi budak yang tiada harapan

kini telah 10 tahun berlalu,
aku bukan lagi budak yg kesunyian, tiada harapan, dan tiada kawan...
pemergianmu amat menyakitkan hatiku~
aku tertekan, aku kesunyian, aku merindui mu~
setiap kali aku terjaga, aku merasakan kehangatan darimu.
aku seringkali,..
mencari dirimu....

mulanya mmg aku tidak dpt menerima kenyataan mengapa dikau pergi,
tetapi akhirnya selepas 3 bulan berkurung didalam bilik,
aku menyedarinya, aku sedar dikau tidak akan menyukai perbuatanku ini,
nasha terima kasih kerana hadir dalam hidupku
walaupun hubungan persahabatan kita tidak begitu lama
kehadiran dirimu banyak mengubah diriku...
nasha aku menyintai dirimu~ engkau mengajar aku erti cinta~
dahulu hanya dikau sahaja yang mengambil berat akan diriku~


kini aku gembira apabila aku tahu bahawa ade org selain dirimu yang bimbang akan diriku,
kerana dengan itu aku pasti teringat akan dirimu
dirimu selalu di fikiran ku nasha~

aku ingin mengatakan bahawa,
aku menyintai dirimu,
bukan kerana rupa paras mu mahupun kesihatan mu,
tetapi kerana dikau sentiase ade untuk ku~
aku akan selalu mencintai mu
kerana mencintaimu membuatku bahagia
bahagia dari semalam

tetapi hari ini~
aku telah dapat peganti dirimu~

wonderfull feelings

"The most wonderful of all things in life is the discovery of another human being with whom one's relationship has a growing depth, beauty and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing; it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of divine accident, and the most wonderful of all things in life."

How To Find The RIGHT GUY

" Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her... "

being cared

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring.....

Just BeiNG ME!!

LOVE: We think about it, Sing about it, Dream about it && Loose sleep worrying about it. When we don't know we have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don't know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear loosing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain. But we don't know which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define && IMPOSSIBLE to live without.

i choose to love u.. u are my everything,..

if i has to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU.
When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.
I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.
As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you.
The best thing about me is you.
If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.
Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it.
I laugh, I love, I hope, I try I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we're really not that different, me and you.

I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE U SO MUCH,.....
AND I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR U,...

coretan hati ini

Terlepas dari sayang, semuanya menyakitkan
Terlepas dari cinta, kita semua tahu dan merasa sakit

Kenapa kau berbohong bahawa semuanya akan ok?
HATI yang sakit tidak boleh diperbaiki dengan mudah
Bagaimana aku hidup tanpa dirimu, jadi ...

walaupun jika aku mati, aku tidak boleh membiarkan kau pergi
Bagaimana mungkin aku membiarkan kau pergi jika kau merancang untuk meninggalkan aku
Kemudian memperbaiki hatiku sehingga aku dapat setidaknya hidup tanpa rasa sakit
Jika kau tidak dapat, maka kerana itu aku tidak akan dapat hidup
Aku tak mungkin membiarkan kau pergi, walaupun jika aku akan mati

Tidak peduli berapa banyak yang mendorong aku pergi, aku akan berpegang pada kau sampai akhir
Jadi, kau tidak akan dapat pergi ke mana pun

Jika kau benar-benar mahu pergi, kemudian hari
Mari kita bertemu besok dalam keadaan senyum
Kemudian katakan bahawa kau sedang bergurau tentang putus jika tidak ...


Kita menghabiskan begitu banyak waktu bersama
Tapi bagaimana mungkin aku hidup sendiri sekarang?
Aku tidak dapat melakukannya, aku tidak boleh

tapi jika itu kemahuan kau, aku akan melepaskan dikau,...
demi kebahagiaan kau,...
kau sentiase dalam kenangan,....
selamat tinggal,.

I know WHY I Love You

I know I’ve fallen in love. The day you came to me
was like a dream painted in grey.
I wanna tell you some, what I say with my heart
Wanna love you I wanna hold you, only my drunken confession.


Hiding where you can't see me.
I only shout the words that you cant hear. I love you.
This short phrase is too difficult for me. I can't even open my mouth.
'I love you' this short phrase is too much for me. I cannot breath.

When you give me LOVE, Girl, I will give you my EVERYTHING.
When I see your red lips, my silent breath purrs with my innocence,
and my heartbeat that feels like its about to explode
strike a message to my ear. Baby I love you indeed.
I send you a message: I can’t see it any teardrop in on your face, girl
I love you, only this
Fearing you'll know if our eyes meet,
I only look away at the sky. I love you.
Come to me. See my eyes. I want you too.
My eyes tell you truth I wanna live in your life

This short phrase is too precious to me.
If you tell me 'I love you,' this one phrase out of anything in the world,
I will be happy.

im strong enough!!

Don't cry.. It could be a little difficult.
Saying its nothing, you could forget about it for a while.
She said, I don't care for a weak guy. No matter how handsome he is.
I like a strong person who can protect his girl.


Everything begans from this moment,
So that I won't get tired no matter how far I have to walk around,
Dear you, give me strenght. Feel so right.

One more time,.. Even if I fall again, one more time
You can do what you do. Shout out whenever you are tired.

EVERYTHING BEGINS AGAIN TODAY,

baby it’s now or never this time is right
Nomatter how high of a place, I will climb up,
I might be late but I won't give up.

I will...forget you...

I will forget you. Starting today,
I don't know you. I have never seen you.
We never even walked pass each other.
I'm okay. I forgot everything. I'm happy with my busy life.
I've met a great person too.

Love is always like this. It fades away after some time.
Can't even remember it,
When love goes away, another love comes again. It definitely will.
Even if it hurts now, it will hear a little later.
It will forget. I will too.

It's not difficult. I will forget everything after today.
I'm just getting used to my changed life.
I will erase everything.
I definitely will.
Even if tears fall now, I will smile a little later.
Just like a wound heals...
I will. I will. I will forget you.

dont lie!!! tell me the truth!!

Look, look at me, me. Look at me straight in the eyes.
Look, you are already look at elsewhere.
you only keep looking at the clock.
You don't have to tell me. I know you got someone else.
You've been meeting someone else often lately.
You don't even call me first anymore.
When you are with me, you would only look at the sky even if a day is a second long.
pff,... I know whats in your mind. The distance between you and I.
Getting farther and wider. We are no better than strangers.

oh baby I'm a loner,
I'm a loner being sad at love, shedding tear at love. My heart hurts.
no body knows, how I feel.
I'm cheering up myself passing many nights awake.
If you had just told me honestly
that you got someone else. That you hate me.
Then I wouldn't have hated you to death.
Remembering your words, they are all silly lies.
Love is going. Love is leaving.
One person and one love. Everything that I've been used to
I should erase you after tonight.
Yes, I should force myself to erase you. I should do so since you abandoned me
Gone Gone my love is gone!!!

I'm a lonely heart hurt by love and waiting for love.
I want this to be a dream....no body knows me.
I'm crying passing many nights awake.

I NEED YOU

by Hanafi Lee on Thursday, 11 March 2010 at 21:03

 

My Soul lies beyond the clouds and space
That’s where it waits for you; burning bright
Wanting your gentle touch, your warm embrace
The caress of your wings, where everything’s alright

Spread your wings and fly towards me
Rise to the heavens with your guiding heart
Following the voice of my soul, follow its plea
You’ll never be alone we’ll never be apart

It’s counted every second you’ve been away
Waiting restlessly, faithfully it’ll always wait
For your return home, for you to stay
I’ve always known from the start you’re my fate

So here I am waiting and I’ll wait for a lifetime
Because I’ve known that all I’ve needed is you
My heart’s always wanted you even after all this time
It’s always dreamt of finding a love so true

what is love

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."